GAHHH.
todays CI submission and i know for sure lecturer would not be satisfied with my work.
oh god, what went wrong?
I can envision myself submitting a well rounded work, comprehensive, and whatever.
But its just not happening....is it so hard to make it happen?
im like trying to jump over a hurdle that i cant see and keep tripping.
why why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

the day before submission for his module is always hell for me. seriously.
lack of sleep for the whole entire night before his submissions.
mentally tortured and very, VERY EXHAUSTED.
E.X.H.A.U.S.T.E.D.

what he said makes sense but im just not reaching there....



This should be my mindset:

i might as well thrive harder. Try to hit the standard and buck ups.
lecturer said that my work of standard is not something that is presentable in year 3.
lecturers will give u mass critic and even with clients present.
"Thats more of a downput to your moral."
true true.
what im facing now is just peanuts.
some minor struggle dat's just so huge to me that i can't overcome.
but i honestly just i feel like im lagging behind.
oh god.


now i understand why there's nothing to rejoice about the 2 weeks holiday.
deadlines, assignments, deadlines, assignments.
can they like just go "poof!"?



UHHH, but really uh, doin CI till im gonna burst....
now i agree with him that my work feels "lost" and why he doesn't get it.
i guess im pretty much going in the wrong direction but thinking that im on the right path - _ -
dammittt.
i even forgotten how to get to bras basah yesterday (UNBELIEVABLE....)
so mixed up, so mixed.



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