A strong word. Full of capacity. And a mixture of feelings.
I've been feeling lik dat lately, no idea why.
It's somehow similiar to feeling how much i lack of talents or skills.
How much i lack? Seems lik everything from A to Z.
Like i'm not excelling in everything that i wished i would.

I know you would surely say: 
" Don't wish then, Make it HAPPEN, put in EFFORTS."
But isn't it always easier said than done?

This whole thing about yr 2 kinda de-moralises me. No accomplishments.
& I'm too negative bout dis. ( i noe)
Furthermore,
i'm starting to feel the stress & tension with increasing workload.

STRESS,
S T R E S S ,
S  T   R  E  S  S  .

tomorrow have cca,
plus tues & wed & thursday (which is the cca orientation) busy busy busy.
& i'm having mid-crit for my Lomokino tingy this upcoming wed,
):

i'm scared i cant juggle my time well, seriouslyyy.
o ya,
i'm also having outing tomorrow for VM.
VM....sth i'm really disliking. (which is why i chose CD)
i'm just not cut out for VM, no talent and non interest.

At times i really wonder what will happen if i'm in VM.
i'd shudder at the thought. That's how fearful i am towards VM.

Loud Sigh.
Im feeling a loss of what to do,
and what direction am i going.